I have something on mind at the moment that I just need to rant about or talk about. If you don't want to read about my rambling on then I will completely understand haha! But I'm hoping someone actually feels the way I do.
Basically, I saw a post on tumblr yesterday saying something like 'I want someone to be obsessed with me'...It was something similar to that anyway. Now my mind over thinks way too much and for some reason, that post annoyed me slightly. It's only great to have someone being 'obsessed' with you if you like that person back. If you don't then it's pretty crap to have someone obsessing over you or not understanding your feelings.
It's also not great when you see them just as friend and you want them to be your friend. I genuinely think it's such a horrible position to be in. When you literally just see someone as a friend or a close friend and they keep going on at you about how much they like you. Yet you tell them again and again that you just don't feel the same.
I've been in this position for the past couple of years and it makes me feel crap. Even while writing this, its happening and for me, it can trigger my anxiety really bad.
Like it's got to the point where the other person would be upset if I got a boyfriend that wasn't him which is completely understandable but it also makes me feel trapped and uncomfortable. Like if I did get a boyfriend that wasn't him then he would be hurt and I'm one of those people that hates hurting people. Even if I can't stand them!
I shouldn't have to feel like that. No one should have to feel like. No one should have to feel trapped because of stupid little things (Not going to lie, I did think of Amnesia...I'm sorry).
I don't want to rant on too much as I could type out so much haha :')
But to end this post, all I'm going to say is...Don't ever let a male or a female try and make you feel bad for not having mutual feelings. It's not worth it.
Also, don't let people try and sweet talk you (especially if you know what they are like and your friends know what they are like).
Anyway, if anyone needs anyone to talk to then I'm always here (don't ever feel alone) :) x